I have been feeling uninspired for some time now. It seems that the roadblocks have been mounting and they have proven more and more difficult to navigate. I have committed myself to online support groups to attempt to achieve my goals (#ROW80 specific for writing goals, #300stepstogreatness for everyday and life goals). I have this overwhelming urge to do so much but it feels as if I am standing in drying cement up to my ankles. But I continue to press on, trying to find what works for me. Last month I decided that I would "do something" on my days off. For me, this meant going outside of my home to enjoy an activity that I am interested in. My goal is to travel. I had planned to start off with small, local, day outings and build into full vacations in countries across the world. I recognize that I have put myself on the back burner for many years and that, now, is MY time. I also recognize that there is some fear involved but this is something that I have to do for myself. I feel as if I'm dying on the inside and I need to save my own life. I am a caged bird. But I have the key to my own freedom and am determined to take those needed steps, alone if need be. I know that much of my journey will be alone because it is my own but I also know that there are good people in this world that will help me along my journey when I need it.
On my path, a book was suggested to me by a fellow writer and creator of the #300stepstogreatness community (thatwritingchic.wordpress.com): The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. While I have just began the introductory pages of the book, I have a good feeling about this process I am about to endure. I have the fear of the unknown. It is mine. I own it. Yet, I have signed the contract to complete the course outlined in the book. This is for me. This is to save my own life. One of the tools in the course is to have a weekly artist date, what I had planned to do anyway just last month. So, I don't have to wing it! My writing goals, as of today, are still the same: write at least twice each week for at least an hour on at least one of my WIPs. I will use today and tomorrow (my days off from work) to accomplish those goals and the article writing/research goals.
I am so very grateful for the communities that I have become a part of. Your blogs help and inspire me. Thank you.