Friday, December 31, 2010

2010: My year in review (well at least the parts I can remember)

I have been thinking about this blog post for the last few days.  And I actually had some good stuff thought out to add, however, most of it has oozed out of my ear. I looked over my previous blog posts and I have fell short on my writing goals.  This is not a celebratory blog as I had hoped.  I was unable keep my thoughts straight long enough to complete a single piece of writing.  My summer assault has proven victorious in regards to my focus.  I have not lost hope though.  I hope to be creative and carefree in the new year.  And I hope to travel more often than not!  I think I will plan trips- day trips, long weekends, girlfriends' getaways, second and third honeymoons- after this reflection.  I am grateful to have a job where, although my days off rotate, I know my schedule for the year!  

So, my year in review (that I can remember)....  I had car problems for eleven of the twelve months in 2010. I had a few deaths, literally and figuratively, in my family.  I have endured a life-altering experience, I moved into an apartment complex for the first time in my life (and live above the "Catman" who I can hear snoring through the floor) and I work six days each week in a place that is the "anti-creative" space.  Not to say that I haven't had several WIP (works in progress) during this year but I have none that are completed.  I attempted to participate in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) which is held during the month of November and I  wrote 132 words! Seriously SMH @ me!  I did, however, gain an addiction to Twitter over the last few weeks.  Overall, for me, 2010 was one continuous stressful event.

In 2011, I would like to accomplish several goals.  I would like to travel more (as stated above).  I would like to take a Gotham Writers' Workshop writing class. I would like to complete at least one short story, one novel, one song, a plethora of poetry, and NaNoWriMo.  I would like to live a healthier lifestyle.  And I would like to stress less.  I am sure that I'll be able to accomplish most, if not all, of these goals but first I have to allow myself a good cleansing (a cry... and maybe a colonic... IDK) and make the moves that I need to make to get where I want to be.

Oh, and I have to get this blog in order... its all over the place! I will happily take suggestions as to where/how to kick start my 2011....

Thursday, December 9, 2010


I've decided that the blogging prompts are wack! I write what I feel, when I feel.  So, needless to point out, I will not be using the blogging prompts.  I also will not be blogging everyday.  I don't have the energy, time, or the topics to blog about something everyday.  I am trying to develop my characters, research locations, and actually get the story out of my head.  So, that was my disclaimer now back to our regularly scheduled topic.

Live.Laugh.Love.  Those three words came to me, in that order, some time ago and I have it on my FB profile page.  Those words, in that order, mean something to me.  I have given myself permission to live, meaning be free, enjoy life and during my journey I should laugh hard and love harder.  All of this to say, today I watched the movie Eat, Pray, Love starring Julia Roberts.  It was a pretty good movie about finding yourself. In the movie, Liz (Julia's character), is a writer who travels to a few countries alone.  She is befriended by a woman in Italy and before you know it she's apart of an inner circle of friends/family.  Initially, my response is "Awww, that's so nice.  I wanna go to Italy and hang out with Italians." But after a while, I began to question if that type of thing happens in real life.  If I travel to Rome, will someone spark up a conversation with me that will lead to a life altering experience which includes developing long lasting relationships? I doubt it.  I'd probably get mugged (did I just use that word?) or something equally as demeaning.  I'd probably be stranded, lonely and cold (IDK why those two words always go together), without money or assistance.  I have to be positive, optimistic, right? WRONG! If I want to go on a life altering, soul cleansing journey which takes me to other countries I have to be realistic.  Safety first.  My inner circle thinks that I'm crazy because visiting Prague and Singapore, amongst other places to travel to,  are both on my bucketlist.  In short, this movie served as a reminder for me to first breathe.  Make sure you check it out.  Then we'll chit chat about it, k? Oh, BTW,

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Writing prompt 12.08.10: What do you think happens after we die?

Actually, I try NOT to think about it because I think too much.  After we die, life goes on- for everything and everybody else.  I like  Alice Sebold's idea that we all experience our own version of heaven that may or may not overlap with other people's heavens.  Think happy thoughts, right?  Maybe it depends on how a person died.  In The Lovely Bones, Suzie Salmon (like the fish) was murdered at age 14 (I think) by a pedophile and most of her heaven was bright and fun. In the movie, What Dreams May Come, Robin Williams' wife committed suicide and she had to spend eternity in her own misery.  I know these are movies, made for entertainment purposes. In reality, my faith tells me that we all (humans) are imperfect and will spend time in the hellfire but the weight of your good deeds will determine how long your stay lasts.  So a person can be there for a millisecond or a trillion eons (or some other unfathomable amount of time).  So, to the question 'What do I think happens after we die?', I don't know- don't even have an Alice Sebold-style depiction, but I don't want to get to the upper room (death) without a scale heavy with good deeds.

Now, I tried this writing prompt thing... didn't really like this one so what I'll do is just pick and choose from all of the prompts available without paying attention to the dates. 

Tomorrow.... I will be better!


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Ok.... Confession

I usually don't look back through my blog because I haven't had much support from those closest to me so I had all but given up on believing I'd ever get responses or anymore followers. Well, after I realized I had a new follower I noticed that I had responses to a few posts. OMG! I am overjoyed that people are reading, responding, and able to relate. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I take my words seriously (most of the time) and it has been difficult to share in the past but you all are motivators and I continue will use my voice (write) because I know someone is listening (reading). Thank you again. Now off to bed for me! TTYL.

I found something else to ease the pain...

The pain I'm referring to is the emotional roller coaster that my mojo has me on.  Sometimes its here and we are in love and other times... well (sigh). I found (IDK how) a site that where people push to blog everyday.  I was just thinking about doing that on December 1st then today I stumble on this site: - National Blog Post Month.  They even give prompts! Now, my goal was to start with today's prompt then double up each day until I've used the prompts I missed since December 1st and remain up to date with the prompts.... but, I just looked at the time after realizing my eyes were getting heavy that its close to bedtime and I have to work in the morning. 4am wake up! Sooooo, I'll start tomorrow. Promise.

PS- I'd like to give a s/o to my new follower, Gordon.  Thanks. You just don't know how you've motivated me just by checking out my posts. There will be more, exciting posts! You'll see, you'll see! LOL! (Now I know I'm sleepy because I'm laughing out loud, literally, to my own horrible attempt at humor! HA! GN.)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Trying out write or die program.... wrote 390+ words in 15 minutes

How does this work? I don't know. What kind of person would purposely put themselves under this much pressure? I can't understand how a person can be creative under pressure. I think that's why I was unable to complete NaNoWriMo this year. I barely even started. Lost my mojo. See, I've been going through some things that has caused my mojo to run away and I'm currently looking to bring it back home. My life, I believe, is boring. Thus the difficulty with finding a topic worth writing about. (See this pressure is ridiculous. I just had a brain fart, couldn't remember how to spell a word, and lost time. UGGGHH!) I have all types of distractions like this Tweetdeck on my laptop. Tweets keep popping up while I type. But I can't not have it on because I think I'll miss something... so sad! Anyway, I work in a prison and decided to try to write a story involving (drum roll please...) working in a prison. Why? I want to scream at the lackluster topic that I chose. But I chose it nonetheless. I started writing an outline. I think it would actually be a pretty good story if I wasn't so unenthusiastic about the topic. So here's the storyline: The wife of a wrongly convicted construction company owner is a corrections officer at the prison he is sent to and she has to keep their marriage e a secret to keep her job while trying to get a lawyer to get his conviction overturned, keep his company afloat, keep their household together, keep her vows, and hold on to her sanity. I don't know what I will do with this storyline but I was instantly bored with it. I can't take my laptop to work and writing on small notepads are very tedious! Oh wow! I went over my word goal with time to spare. Guess this thing does work. Now to schedule writing time everyday..... mission impossible? We will see....